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Thursday, July 29, 2010

没有你的日子- Day 97

I tot that im the lucky gal coz i have a bf who loved me as i loved him... We even went to apply flat tgt and that will be our dream house for both of us... I nv ask him to change his bad habit becoz of me coz i know it will be difficult for him to do so... so i tell myself in order not to ask him change i change to accept everything that he does... People always say if u like the person you will like his bad habit too... But these lucky days have come to an end on 23 April 2010... He choose to end our 3.3 years relationship.... It was so sad that i can't accept everything.. I cried and i keep on thinking that he will be back to me soon.. but now that i have known that he actually attached on the day that he broke up with me... that hurts me alot... what he say keep appears on my mind... Those words are so hurtful to me.. Sometimes im asking myself why i need to go thru this... Am I that bad that he cant live with ? I know that my temper is a problem for him to accept me... I know it is very hard for me to let go the relationship but now I have no choice and I have to let go. Maybe letting it go does not seems a bad thing... For him will be good...

I can't hope much what I hope now is that the gal can love him like how I used to love him... miss him like hos i used to miss him.... worry abt him like how i worry abt him but not to the extend... treaure and cherish him alothough im not gd in it.... dote him like i dote him... dun hurt him like i used to do.... take care of him like how I used to do... Hope she will rem what food he dun like and like and food that he can't eat.... Dun always quarrel with him... trust him more and sometimes let him have his free time to do his things... Dun tie him so tight as he dun like...

I have told myself although it is hard to forget him but deep inside my heart he is the one that I love most and will keep inside my memories forever...

Dear Dear i know that u will read my blog I really hope that you can relax urself and please dun hate him... In relationship there isn't any right or wrong... What I can say is he tried his best to accept me but maybe to him it is really difficult and he might not see any future in us so the best way is to go seperate way... 我只可以说我做的不够好。我老是弄他不开心和弄他生气久了也会厌倦的。你也知道我也有错对吗？我也不是一个好人吧。。。 Can we just blessed him and his gf... 以平常心对待好吗？